i miss being loved.

whos willing to shower me wif ur love?

thanks to steph....u should noe wad i mean huh stephie. haha.

MY PERFECT LOVER:
(1) gentleman
(2) not too possesive
(3) not too skinny
(4) sporty
(5) thinks maturely
(6) someone who will make me laugh till i cry
(7) someone who will be my clown when im down
(8) most imptly, loves me for who i am

this is so impossible.
bye.

this is seriously pissing e shit out of me. im serious.
im like so tired. i repeat, IM VERY TIRED.
i have been reaching home at ard 11 plus these few daes.
hello? please spare a tot for others.
u all gotta rush thru ur project and e same goes for me too.
not only projects, i have tutorials and revisions to do since common test is just around e corner.
i cant take it anymore, i'll break down any second. this is not a joke. im not kidding.
u ppl are always delaying time. first, u told me e shooting will end at 8. and guess wad?
the thingy went on till like 10?
how am i gonna trust u all like that?
next, u guys tell me its okie if im really tired, but guess wad again?
u all still insisted that i have to go.
so wads e point of msging me telling me its okie if im tired?
i got a life as well alright.
sorry, but im really tired. like it or not, im still gonna voice out how i feel.
this is killing me. i need a break. i need to rest. i need time.

bye.

EAA IS FULL OF CRAPS.
craps craps craps.
so boring like shit.

anw, everyone seems to be doing their own stuff too. haha.
oh, skipped fmgt lecture this morning. i need to destress. haha. went kap to have breakfast wif janice, hernying and stephie. hehe.

bye. im gonna go play game wif stephie.

i need a break, i need a break, I SERIOUSLY NEED A BREAK.

i think im gonna go bonkers any second. im not kidding.
my brain cells are dead.
i dont noe wad to blog.

bye.

im so freaking full. i think my tummy is gonna explode any second. haha. went for my uncle's hse warming. he stays in kallang which is very near to GEYLANG. that is e only thing that aroused my interest in going. haha. i wanna explore that place. it seems so interesting over there. indeed, i saw prostitutes under e bridge. haha. thats their new hangout where their "business" get going, according to my uncle's wife. haha. saw many bangalas and old man along e street as well.

alright, enuf of this. haha. saw many durian booths along as well! but too bad, we dint get to eat them. haha. had dinner at no sign board restaurant and its hell expensive i swear. haha. wanna noe our bill? come and ask me. haha. we had steamed fish, chilli crab, deer meet, blah blah blah. haha.

i think im so dead. im soooooo packed for e week i dont noe how. im suffocating. seriously, projects are gonna be dued, so on and so forth. this is terrible. gonna head down to sch tml for fmgt project.

anw, a new layout. credit all goes to clara, my wonderful, powderful sister. haha. and no doubt, that handprint on e top left hand corner is really mine. haha.

bye.

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.

Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future didn't seem too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future forboth of them, so they went their own ways there and then...

Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his confidence, heworked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself.

Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends, this guy hadset up his own company ..

You never fail until you stop trying. One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rainwalking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize they were his girl's parents.

With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same any more; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it! What he saw next confused him, the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and so he got out of his car and followed...and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes right beside her...

Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle... therefore she had chosen to leave him.Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again...he can take some of those back with him...

Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.

The guy just wept...The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can't have her, see her or be with her ever again..

Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.

i tot this story was kind of really beautiful. =))

towned wif elsa todae to get gabriel's bdae gift. haha. and we were on an eating spree! hehe. anw, im too lazy to blog. so yeahh, thats abt all.



bye.

alright. it e start of weekend again. like finally aft one whole week of horrible terrible lectures and tutorials. guess im gonna stay at home tml and get my tutorials done. this is like e same old routine every week. my life is getting dull-er and dull-er. haha.

so todae i almost woke up late for sch. thank god elsa msged me and told me shes not going to sch cos shes not feeling well [take care elsa]. otherwise, im gonna waste my 13 bucks on cab again. haha. auditing tutorial was alright, tho was lost at times during e tutorial but still can cope wif it. next up was ifa lecture and its e worst lecture of e week i would sae and i shan't elaborate more.

headed for some HP plant tour aft sch. e journey there was fun. we were like primary sch kids going out for some excursion. haha. BUT DEN, it was utterly BORING there. haha. seriously, i dont see wad are e benefits of this tour. towned wif stephie aft that. had dinner at cine, walked ard and home sweet home. haha. was far too tired.

this is utterly a big disappointment.
im down, really down.
if u ask me wads e definition of friends,
i will tell u,
friends will always be there for u,
be by ur side no matter wad happen,
share happiness and unhappiness wif u,
guide u thru when u're lost in e mist.
always be the ones to lend out their hands.
and never never leave u alone.
but if u ask me again wads e definition of friends now,
i cant answer u.
friends form e biggest part of my life.
but its
no longer wad i used to think.
no longer how it used to be.
i think im just too naive.

i felt lost,
completely lost and lonely todae.
there was this point of time where i almost burst out.
i noe ppl might be thinking, why is crystal making such a big fuss out of everything?
wads more it was her who isolated herself.
but if u were to put urself into my shoe, i guess u will understand how i felt.

todae is such a long dae and i dont wish to mention anything.
all i wanna do is to sleep and never wake up to get away from all these shits.

bye.

hehe.


pardon my mum please. haha.


say cheese.


wad a blur face russel. haha.


omg, look at this 2 cousins of mine. haha.


my lil nephew javen! look how cute he his. haha. and thats
his mum on e left.


another cousin of mine, sarah.


haha. another cousin of mine again, rayshawn.

alright, those are e pics taken in some chinese restaurant in msia. we had our own room wif ktv system inside. haha. food wasnt really that great tho. BUT, had fun singing. haha. all of us were like snatching e mic. hahaha.

before heading to e restaurant for dinner, we went to this mega huge shopping mall. haha. hmm, gotten a pair of slippers, a top and many lingeries. haha. they are sooooo cheap like siao. im serious. haha. oh oh, and not forgetting foooooood. haha.

reached home at ard 12 plus and i was dead beat, so yeahh, went to bed aft washing up. haha.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MEILENG! =D

bye.

fucking hell fucking hell FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. why cant systems just operate nicely? why do those freaking virus exist? why why WHYYYYYYYYYY? this stupid stuff keeps popping up like nobodys business. argh. this is seriously pissing me off. like i have to reformat my laptop AGAIN, FOR E THIRD FUCKING TIME.

bye.

like finally i managed to get into e page where i can blog aft soooooooooooooooo long. haha.

anw, i only wanted to blog abt smth.
had cost accounting lecture todae and this stupid lecturer of ours said smth which really turns me off. i bet not only me but some others as well.
here goes e story...
mr xxx asked if we could hear him and we said no. e fact that he was speaking so softly and we were seated at e last few rows, WE REALLY COULDNT HEAR HIM CLEARLY. guess wad was his reply? i was so freaking amazed. he said "cant hear? den i suggest u all should go and consult a doctor." like WAD E HELL. u are such a loser man. u wasted ur time lecturing us and i mean tellng us off instead of doing

bye.

HAHAHA. damn gay pls. like finally i know wads e meaning of gay. SO GAY. hahaha.

anw, had an hr of events management todae. den headed down to canteen one wif evelyn to meet hernying, jasmine and daniel aft that. ate yong tau foo. haha. i love yong tau foo. so nice pls. did EAA till elsa, janice and stephie joined us and I SWEAR ACCPAC IS DAMN A DESTROYER. haha. aggie came over to find me and headed down to my hse before meeting gillian in town. oh oh, before that, we accompanied stephie to blk 56, level 6 for her class. haha.

met gillian, had pasta for dinner. shopped ard and this 2 guys who claimed to be from UAN approached us and STRONGLY ENCOURAGE us to leave down our no. which was a total crap. they just cant stop toking for gods sake. haha. one of e guy looks cute tho. HAHA. was trying to sae bye to shut their mouths but failed. haha. but still, they got rejected. haha.

im dead tired man. seriously need more beauty slp. haha.

bye.

sentosa

BBQ at shawn's house














got up at 1pm and only managed to get fmgt's tutorial done.
events management tml. from 9 to 930. this is so freaking dumb. seriously. haha.

im hurt.

bye.

YOU seriously ought to be shot. U PISSED E SHIT OUT OF ME. do u have to laugh so freaking loud when a joke was made on me????? oh, u must be thinking, its a joke, so im suppose to laugh. I BET THERE ISNT A NEED TO DO IT SO LOUDLY YEAHH? thats really an insult, i think u're just making a fool out of urself. YOU HAVE OVERDONE IT. and incase u're thinking who im toking abt. ITS YOU, EUGENE. E-U-G-E-N-E. it wld be great if YOU'RE READING THIS POST. =))

alright. enough of this arse.
had lots of fun todae and i hope e freshies had fun too =D
THANKEW AHMAD AND GABRIEL for doing most of e bbq-ing. e food was really nice. haha. u all must have sweat like mad. haha. and yes, i seriously cant do e monkey bar thingy. haha. IM JUST SHORT ALRIGHT. haha. poor steph. gabriel jason and shawn scared e shit out of her. haha. ghost stories are always so interesting. haha. last but not least, THANKEW AHMAD GABRIEL RON SHANE KIANWAI JASON OLIVIA VINA FOR UR PRESENCE AND SHAWN FOR UR HSE'S BBQ PIT. haha.

bye.

HAPPY 4th BIRTHDAY JERON! -toodles =))

its 11am now and im alr awake. this is rare on a saturday morning. im hungry.

gonna head down to shawn's hse in a few hours time for bbq. looking forward to it =))

many things start to flood in all at once,
till e extent that im lost,
very lost,
seriously lost.

bye.

smth i really dislike.
1. stop YELLING my name out when u happen to bump into me anywhere cos its really embarassing. i dont need e whole world to noe who i am and ppl will be staring at me like i'm some monkey from e zoo. worst still, those parots who heard my name will start calling out my name again and again when i dont even noe who e hell they are.

2. people who lean on e poles in e train that are supposed to be meant for ppl like me who cant even balance themsleves when they stand on two feet. kindly get ur arse off =))

alright, im sooooo glad that my bestie finally got herself into a relationship? haha.
to mr AHEM, u're one lucky man i must sae and u better take a hell lot of care of my bestie, otherwise u're gonna get a big fat punch right in e face of urs from me. haha. and never take her for granted. treasure her and love her wif all ur mights. =))

i think my head is gonna explode any sec. HEADACHE PLS.
just did my ifa tutorial cos i was simply bored. haha.

bye.

sch is getting boring. tutorials aft tutorials, lectures aft lectures. sick pls. e worst thing is i dont get wad e tutor is toking abt even aft tutorial. this is terrible. haha.

super nanny is nice! go take a look at e wildest, craziest, naughtiest kids on earth. haha.

bye.